Hey guys... There are many things that have happened since I have posted last. I started my six flags job, it's been fun and exhausting. My mom has her ups and down days. One day she'll feel great and others no so much. We had to take her to the ER a couple of times just as a precaution. It'll be awhile before she returns to normal or close to it. I had car trouble during this time. My front tires went bad, the rod went bad, and someone hit a golf ball that went thru the driver's side window. On top of that I heard "Bad day" three times in one day. So I am still broke even though I have a job. I did buy an Iphone though. It's been a while since I bought anything new.
Can you believe this decade is coming to an end? Wow. It doesn't feel that long ago where everyone was taking "Y2K", "Y2K" and "it's going to be the end of the world". We had to deal with Bush and his lousy leadership that has screwed this country for awhile. We are in two wars still, well one is about to end, Iraq, and the other , Afghanistan, is still going. Gas prices were good early this decade but have risen i recent times. We saw Britney's rise, fall, and rise again. Michael Jordan unretired and retired for the final time. A lot of shows ended like "Friends" but some shows are still going like "The Simpsons". OJ finally went to jail not for murder but for armed burglary. The Enron scandal and other things. What will you remember from this decade?
There is a big battle about health care in this country and how to reform it. Whatever the outcome of it is, I just want it to better the health care industry. Obviously that won't happen because the government and it's leaders are stooooopid. I have already touched on this subject, so, I won't indulge in it any further. Do you know why people are in debt? Just look at the government. The difference nobody's takin their money and they are taking ours. What else are they going to tax?
I have this weekend off...woo-hoo. It's gonna be a scorcher. I am going to chill inside in air-conditioning. 'Til next time...see ya.
Friday, August 7, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
ME time....
Hey....y'all. What a horrific month. My mom has been in the hospital for most of this month. Her health hasn't been doing well these past few months, now they found the problem. Hopefully, she'll be out soon. I, finally, got a call form six flags about the job, got training setup for Tuesday. That's the only good news I've had in awhile. It's been pretty much a sucky month with the weather being so hot. King of Pop, Ed McMahon, and Farrah Fawcett died and so many other untimely deaths. I found out I didn't get an internship, my files are lost at the college (didn't know I existed). This whole summer is shot, due to my mom's health, my job, and other things. I, badly, want this month to end.
I just hate it when people say "it's going to be alright" or "stay positive". I mean how long can anyone wait, when they do everything right and nothing goes right. hmm....When everything still goes wrong even after you did everything that is possible. While, it seems, that others are barely doing anything and it works out for them. They don't even deserve it but they get it. I always put others before me, but I think that's my downfall. I tried to keep everybody happy and it never works. If one's happy, the other is not. It's a constant cycle.Where's me time? If I do get that, it's usually too short. In the end, I didn't take care of myself. I feel like "I" have to do everything or 'cuz nobody will help. Nobody asks if I need a vacation or a break. hmm.... People depended on me and I liked that. But when I need help it seems like none is to be found. Is it just me or is that how people behave now-a-days? Example: I was told to do something, so I did it my way. Thinking I got the job done, at low cost and efficiently, it was good enough. Nope, that wasn't good because it wasn't their way of doing it. I am sick an tired beyond belief of this s**t. I don't feel respected. I don't feel appreciated of the things I have done. All I hear is, "you've failed, you should be ashamed", etc. Especially, from the ones I care about and that what hurts the most. Maybe I need to deal with whatever I have inside because I might blow and it sucks. Who do I have to talk to? Everybody has their own problems, I understand, but they also have an outlet. Where's mine? I had one but that person doesn't exist any more or not allowed to talk to that person. It seems like I am calm now but it's only a matter of time before it happens and I hope it's not at the wrong person...I worked hard, very hard to be a better person, and this is what I deserve? Is it karma? If so, what did I do? Should I sell my soul just to enjoy life? Do I go to the dark side? Honestly, I am thinking about it. Why shouldn't I?
I just hate it when people say "it's going to be alright" or "stay positive". I mean how long can anyone wait, when they do everything right and nothing goes right. hmm....When everything still goes wrong even after you did everything that is possible. While, it seems, that others are barely doing anything and it works out for them. They don't even deserve it but they get it. I always put others before me, but I think that's my downfall. I tried to keep everybody happy and it never works. If one's happy, the other is not. It's a constant cycle.Where's me time? If I do get that, it's usually too short. In the end, I didn't take care of myself. I feel like "I" have to do everything or 'cuz nobody will help. Nobody asks if I need a vacation or a break. hmm.... People depended on me and I liked that. But when I need help it seems like none is to be found. Is it just me or is that how people behave now-a-days? Example: I was told to do something, so I did it my way. Thinking I got the job done, at low cost and efficiently, it was good enough. Nope, that wasn't good because it wasn't their way of doing it. I am sick an tired beyond belief of this s**t. I don't feel respected. I don't feel appreciated of the things I have done. All I hear is, "you've failed, you should be ashamed", etc. Especially, from the ones I care about and that what hurts the most. Maybe I need to deal with whatever I have inside because I might blow and it sucks. Who do I have to talk to? Everybody has their own problems, I understand, but they also have an outlet. Where's mine? I had one but that person doesn't exist any more or not allowed to talk to that person. It seems like I am calm now but it's only a matter of time before it happens and I hope it's not at the wrong person...I worked hard, very hard to be a better person, and this is what I deserve? Is it karma? If so, what did I do? Should I sell my soul just to enjoy life? Do I go to the dark side? Honestly, I am thinking about it. Why shouldn't I?
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